no doubt that like whatever others said about my current line..
how good it is and how it can be..

i just feel that i want to do more on what i had been planning my life for..
to walk the path that destiny brought me for from the start..
i want to keep studying on what i am building up on..

who said life must end with job and family (as in marriage)?!
i seen people having carefree life doing what they want to do..
being happy for all the things that come and go..

one of my colleagues told me that she knew that i am the type who will go for happiness rather than income..
time after time, got reprimand over quota and lack of product knowledge..
many times, i felt like falling back.. (i know this is a part which DarDar don't want to see in my blog)..

on the way home today..
i heard the calling(s) within my subconscious mind, keep asking me what am i doing to myself..
reasons that i often gave to pull myself through, is i have to at least be responsible to one of my friends, to help him do amendment for next year, it's for my "laopa", for my wealth foundation (this part is not quite true cos i can build it up even if i choose to have a change)..

well~

after some surfing of webbies, my desktop's motherboard somehow crash..
tired of such soap opera of the computer time after time..
tried to fix it up since 8pm till now.. nothing work out..
no choice.. no matter what my manager going do or nag at me..
i have to bring this motherboard to repair asap for my dad..
else i will be getting endless nagging from him instead..

again.. why me?
why always be that i am the one to be responsible for so many things?
blamed me for running away after closing case from warm market..
demanding me for a haircut..
computer problem also i have to settle..
too many to list to query..

i miss the happy-jumping-around me that i used to be..
i need a time-off to clear my home..
throw all clutters..
remove all negativities..
*REQUIRING SPACE FOR MYSELF*