after so many days of rushing my work and stuffs

just this moment that i can rest a little while before all the rushing coming back

though times are not good

i'm still standing strong to do whatever i can

cos that is what i am here for

don't know why these days feeling rather fatigue and exhauted

no mood to really find out what is what

just going on and on and on according to whatever flow it is

it seems that i had been dwelling in my work most of the time

and never let myself out of the ratrace for a rest

why did i do this to myself when it is not my flare

anyway, after all the learning of the new system and coping up with work

i hope that i am able to work more efficiently

hence, i will have more time to rest myself away from the working hours

today.. raining whole day..
anyway, this song that is in my audition portable..
keep repeating it's meaningful lyrics in my mind..
it is how i feel right now..
at this current phase of life..
everyone have to go through the many obstacles in life..
i'll be there for whatever may come by..
i'll be there to move it on..
no one is alone.. it's only how things are seen..

I'll be there by Sweetbox

yeah~ we all know how it is
sometimes, you need a shoulder to lean on
and when that time comes
you know i'm there, come on
(i'll be there...i'll be...)

doesn't matter when you call me at night
i'll be there, i'll be there all the time
doesn't matter when the tears hurt your eyes
i'll be there, i'll be there it's alright
i will care...i will share...i will take you out of the dark
doesn't matter when you call me at night
i'll be there, i'll be there all the time

yeah, if i'm down cause i lost my job
and i'm feeling depressed
would you help me relieve the stress
what if i'm sick and i need to rest
would you tuck me in, feed me soup and rub my chest
and then the times when i just need somebody to talk to
are you the right one i can walk to
when i'm down, the tears is pouring, its three in the morning
would you pick up the phone when i'm calling?
tell me girl

doesn't matter when you call me at night
i'll be there, i'll be there all the time
doesn't matter when the tears hurt your eyes
i'll be there, i'll be there it's alright
i will care...i will share...i will take you out of the dark
doesn't matter when you call me at night
i'll be there, i'll be there all the time

yeah...
you know i need someone during for serious times
you know

we all go through our ups and downs
at times i wanna cuss and frown
when bad luck sucks you down
i need someone to cheer me up, make me laugh
splash away the grief when we take a bath
and in my time of my need
she'll be there for me always
and we can chill and relax on our off days
it's only right to give her all praise
cuz when the time gets tough
she'll be killing me softly as she says:

doesn't matter when you call me at night
i'll be there, i'll be there all the time
doesn't matter when the tears hurt your eyes
i'll be there, i'll be there it's alright
i will care...i will share...i will take you out of the dark
doesn't matter when you call me at night
i'll be there, i'll be there all the time

i know it isn't easy
i know it isn't fair
i know that life is heavy when no one cares
and we all need a shelter
we all need a home
so come with me cuz i will never let you cry alone

doesn't matter when you call me at night
i'll be there, i'll be there all the time
doesn't matter when the tears hurt your eyes
i'll be there, i'll be there it's alright
i will care...i will share...i will take you out of the dark
doesn't matter when you call me at night
i'll be there, i'll be there all the time

doesn't matter when you call me at night
i'll be there, i'll be there all the time
doesn't matter when the tears hurt your eyes
i'll be there, i'll be there it's alright
i will care...i will share...i will take you out of the dark
doesn't matter when you call me at night
i'll be there, i'll be there all the time
i'll be there, i'll be there all the time

last wednesday went to Sapporo Trip with a few of my colleagues..
for the dinner we had that day..
i ate the same pasta stew that i had the previous saturday..
we also shared the tofu and assorted sashimi..
it's fantastically fresh..
drank quite a lot that day.. due to happy hours deal..
it's rather cheap for the cocktails..
and i had about two serving of the same cocktail, Chu Calapis..
the first serving was just nice.. the second serving rather gassy..
no choice cos it came from two different bartender..
after Sapporo Trip.. we walked to The Central to shop for Japanese stuffs..
and another drink at there..
cos Alycia and BoonBeng bought Cherry Wine..
haha.. what an alcoholic day..

yesterday.. went to Summer Festival..
sad to say that it's raining..
programmes were changed to another venue
had lots of fun fishing the yoyo..
this year gotta eat curry rice..
after all, we still enjoyed..
higher expectation of next year's event..
hope next year don't rain.. hehehe..

happiness comes naturally within you..

Going to sleep now..

Felt tired..

To rest is to proceed on to a further journey..

Don't know what to say more about..

i'm happy and contented with what i hav right now..

for now.. i need more sleep.. health issue..

let's see what should i speed type about?

how do i feel about today?

frankly, today start off rather well..

just that after i'm stuck with the ppms case and a SMRD case..

i seems to be tense and stressful..

no means of being moody..

but when it comes to work and that when i have to kinda fully concentrate on it..

the atmosphere in my world just change and drag me to somewhere gloomy?

perhaps, it's a way to direct my attention towards the work that i do and cautious to not getting myself to create any mistake?

honeymoon season ends fast..

or should i said that it started way back..

even before the fireworks started, that's why i didn't realised the time when it is leaving..

i know that i am blessed with my current situation..

and also that i'm blessed to be surrounded with all the wonderful people that i'm counting for my blessing..

no matter how much the season ends or how long the firework last..

there's something there in my heart which will tingles and keep me moving on..

a question that i asked before.. "is there reason to love someone?"

my answer to that ambiguous question is that, "there's no reason when you really love someone cos your heart just beat and you are willing to give out the love that you had in you.. and that's what unconditional love means.. giving without expecting anything in return.. being happy to give and making others happy.. cos, when you see someone else especially your loved ones to be happy, you will also naturally be happy.."

i appreciate everything that i had experienced in life till this current moment..

i had learnt many aspects of life..

and i'm ready to get more out of it..

looking forward to my september..